America, Day 17
Felt pretty good today. I think I am shedding the idea that writing has got to be this incredibly emotional endeavor involving blood, sweat and random inspiration. You just have to get out of yourself and your head and let it flow. Easier said that done, but also easier done than said. I sort of […]
America, Day 16
Had a really good talk with my close friend last night, in which we discussed many things, some unprintable. It was humbling to discover that we humans, despite our many shields and illusions, are actually really much the same at heart. We have our differences, our hangups, our pains, but we’re all here on the […]
America, Day 15
Woke up early again. I know why I sleep less everyday now… no one’s trying to kill me anymore! Whoo-hoo, score one for Captain Obvious! But honestly, though, it’s a great feeling to have less energy with less sleep. More time for blogging, for one. Pizza for breakfast! It doesn’t get more American than that. […]
America, Day 14
Woke up to…another attack of the past. I guess I should be happy it’s coming up to be healed but at the same time it’s kind of a drag. I’m getting more and more familiar with the sensations of them now though. Much of what I am experiencing are things from my post-suicidal period in […]
America, Day 13
America, Day 13 I foresee a long day of blogging and working on my site ahead. Also I may actually finishing watching Gundam Unicorn, especially as BQ has a nice TV on which to watch it. No car in the US can be quite a downer. There’s a bike but it’s not yet travel-ready. Tomorrow […]
America, Day 12
America, Day 12 Woke up early because I slept early, starting writing more blog posts. These things don’t write themselves! FInding it easier and easier to write now I’m getting into a habit of doing it practically every day at regular times. There is something to be said for internalization. Still sometimes haunted, still wish […]
America, Day 11
Another fortuituous day, May Day. Time for church, which I was quite looking forwards to. I never thought the day would come that I would actually be LOOKING FORWARDS TO GOING TO CHURCH. But then again that was before I discovered a church like this. The sermon was on pornography. I really admire the minister […]
America, Day 10
America, Day 10 Woke up to a beautiful morning and…more problems with the Internet. Sigh. Perhaps Wi-Fi really IS the bottom rung of Maslow’s pyramid. It seems we can get little done without it. More reflection, of the good kind this time. Much deep pain is being cleansed on this trip and I can feel […]
America, Day 9
Woke up early to some connectivity problems with the wi-fi. I guess I shouldn’t assume it will work everywhere. Decided to continue writing in the absence of the Internet. More of the past distintegrates. The envy that used to hound me, the constant feeling of being “late”, the money worries…all that seems so faraway now. […]
America, Day 8
Woke up early again. So many things to doooooooooooooooo…ok, slow down, focus. One thing at a time. No Unicorn today, I have a long day ahead of me. Maybe like…half an episode later. Maaaaaaaaaybe. Bid farewell to everyone and settled in for the night. Had some time for self-reflection. As one of the older gentlemen […]